The one of my dreams, finally at 29

So, tomorrow. January 19, 2010. I will officially be 29 years old. Where did the time go and how did it go by so fast?

Tomorrow: Renew license (actually get my Washington license after all this time). I’ve been working late so I can go during work to get my new license. According to Kim, the gal I work next to, she waited over 3 hours last time she had to renew her license. I have a plan though. I shall get there 20 minutes before they open the door and wait in line. I’ll let you know how it turns out.

Stephen will be here on Wednesday. Should I be a bit nervous? A bit anxious? — Well I am. I know this will work out well, it’s just a big change for the both of us. I think I’m worried most of all for his sake. I don’t want him to be stuck somewhere he doesn’t like. I don’t think we will have a problem though because I trust he will tell me his feelings and I’m really not opposed to going somewhere else. Honestly, I really don’t have too much holding me here in Spokane. He would like us to stay here for at least a little while. A year or two?

I guess, it’s just a big change – for the both of us. The reality will set in a few days later. This will be good. We are good at communicating with each other and it is easy to be in the company of each other. We’ll make this work.

Next thing I know, we’ll be embracing each other, going forward and never looking back.

He’s the one I’ve been waiting for all of these years. 29 and the one in my dreams has finally become a reality. This just happens a bit sooner for some and a bit later for others.

Today I’ve been concentrating on a shopping list and coming up with different meal plans. I guess my dad was right. I will make someone a good wife some day. I’m such an odd duck. Work on the car. Work on the computer. Work in the kitchen. Work on the laundry. Work on the house. –and I enjoy all of it.

Anyhow, just random ramblings. Not much for organized thoughts for today.

Where’s the Spirit? Today’s Words and Songs

I love the feeling of the holidays. The smiles on peoples’ faces warm my heart. The heightened sense of compassion displayed by others inspires me to be a better person.

Okay, wait. Wait, hold on.

I love the IDEA of the feeling of the holidays. Where has the feel-good gone?

I can see the awe, wonder and holiday spirit within children. I do enjoy seeing how happy they are. I can feel a hint of the warm-fuzzy feeling come back into my heart.

The lack of snow this year hasn’t helped the spirit this year—no matter how much I hate to admit it.  Oh, how I would love to spout off all the terrible things going wrong with society, how all of these things are contributing to our general unhappiness, and throwing our holiday spirit out the window. I’m not going to do that. I will not focus on the negative. (screw money). Okay, now I’m done.

I’m excited to spend time with the family over this upcoming extended weekend. I love all of them, every single one.  We always have a great time. I’m sure this is just what I need to pull me out of this funk. Thinking of all the kids with smiles on their faces and ripping through their gifts about brings a tear to my eye. (my left eye, FYI).

I’m afraid all I will do is eat all the wonderful and delicious food. Oh boy, how I would love to. I am promising to you and myself – I will not cave. I have too much time invested in shedding those pounds and still have work to do. It doesn’t change the fact that I want to pig-out. YUM.

Definitions for words I’ve been thinking about today:

complacent: self-satisfied, unconcerned.

unmotivated: having no motive, stimulus, or influence: lack of incentive or drive.

distracted: mentally confused, troubled or remote.

depressed: low in spirits, especially sad, affected by psychological depression.

Quote of the Day:

It is better to offer no excuse than a bad one. – George Washington

Songs for today: (I highly suggest looking up the lyrics)

A Decade Under The Influence – Taking Back Sunday

Cool – Gwen Stefani

Resolution Project

Just me being hardcore

My great friend Jayme came across an idea on a blog. The idea is quite simple. Learn something new everyday. She sent a message to myself and a couple others hoping to find someone to do this along with her. This is my official “yes”. (Read her blog post here)

Of course, this idea can be improved upon, right? So here’s the general idea. Learn something new, work on something, or take steps to improve your health. Or simply, try something new or do something different.

(I apologize for taking some of this verbiage directly from your blog post)

This project sounds like a lot of fun to me. What do I see in this for me? A friend or group of friends that will be doing a similar project which will keep me motivated and on task to keep my blog updated.

And how fun to read what everyone else is learning.

This is about discovery. Possibly more personal and internal than we think.

Well here we go!